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of rushed words and hushed thirsts
mellowman

the wave, the surge

Some call it love and some call it sex.
opposites.
Call it what you want, but with one touch and you’re gone, so call in sick.
Human politics, from whispered hushes and distant crushes.
Mental fits breakin’ pencil tips and
inkin’ brushes.
Simple rushes.
God makes man and this is the devil's finishing touches.
- Butterfly Effect -

alfresco

beat, rhythm
questions, answers

movements





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Thursday, November 5, 2020

 i'm back.


these days i have nothing much to say to myself because i'm so used to stifling any thoughts. i'm not even sure how i feel about them, afraid, tired, jaded. i have no clue.

it feels like my emotions cycle through the same things over and over again that it's stale and wearisome for me to keep spouting the exact shit i don't wanna deal with. so i mute them like it's the news reporting on some faraway occurrence.

i long to feel... i think. but i know with that comes responsibility and righteousness and wanting more, and i'm exhausted. at 25. soon 26. really soon.


i'm listening to sinatra's my way. it reminds me of papali, and of simpler days. it reminds me of hope, that i can still be someone i want to. it's annoying.



♥ 12:08 PM