I've settled with the end. I know how this will go. I have gone through the motions of breaking into my shell of despair and theatrics, given myself a long hard look and a long-winded pep talk after a quick assessment of the inevitable ripple, and clenched my heart into a fist of determined curl. It wont uncurl. Not anymore. I wont let it.

This is all to get the toxin out of my body. Sure the trail of its scent and slime will remain, but it will do. Enough to lace myself with a thin veil of indifference. It was bound to happen, I'd tell them. I knew it was coming so it doesn't feel that much different from before. Now we're back to normal. Such a relief.

Right?

♥ 4:48 PM