I now have a fear of being judged. Of showing myself. As if being myself where people can see is wrong and sinful and yeah I should definitely just stay cooped up in my room coming out only when I need need need to but ofc head to toe dressed in an unattractive and closed garb coz girl if someone likes you then omg slut stop being a hypocrite.

You know that feeling of being looked down upon? I brush off those judgmental stares and eyes rolled and uncurled mouths as my paranoia striking me out of tune. It is just a Monopoly game, and the only rules you need to follow are His words, the required governance from Allah SWT. Ya Allah, etch your presence in my soul and direct me towards imaan.

I need You and only You.