i've come to realize that what i do to others is the determining point of how i'd feel for the day, and most probably, my whole life. i'd been thinking about myself, my life, and my ways. but the talk today gave me a clear cut answer of who i am and where i want to stand as a person. i want to try my best to be that person, and i'm slowly changing. reminding myself to be nice, to be pleasing, and still retain who i am at the same time. this may sound menial, but it is a resolution i must tend to. i don't have anyone to confide in, and it saddens me because that means no one really knows me. or maybe i'm just a sad person.

my ego is huge and my head is sometimes so inflated i'm probably as narcissistic as that guy in front of me *coughcough*. so i need a pin or a needle to poke my ass and tell me to drop it and be you but not that bad side of you you weirdo. but not a lot of people has been doing that to me. thus, i am here. attempting to poke myself with whatever i can find. it's a shame evil me isn't gonna last, but it can't last. so here goes, 

i'm poking you.

pokepokepokepoke.