i get attached to those who are nice to me so easily, it's ridiculous. i wonder if other people think of me the same way as i think of them, as a friend who'll always be there, as someone who'll always greet me and comfort me. i know i'm asking too much of someone. too much of anyone. but it hurts to not have someone like this.
the thing is though, i do have these people. i've met these people through twitter, through livejournal etc. and they care. well, at least i think they do. they show it too, how much they care. it's just sometimes when they're not there, i want more. sometimes, they are there, but they don't pay attention to me. it eats me inside to be honest.
i hate being selfish, i hate being self-centered. i give so much to people and i expect the same from them. no, it's not worldly materials, it's emotion. i take my time to inquire about their day, how they're doing, what they're thinking. can't i get the same?
yeah teenage angst need to fuck off.
♥ 2:45 AM